It was 4:15, and we needed to be to gymnastics at 4:30. I asked everyone to get their shoes on while I threw the diaper bag together and got everyone water and snacks.
As we are all headed out the door, guess who doesn't have shoes on? My slow-ass little man was too captivated by Barbie's Life in the Dreamhouse to shove on his sneakers, so I turned the TV off, and told him the girls and I would meet him outside in the car. After wrestling Mila into her car seat, arguing with Lily about how she should bring crayons instead of markers to the gym, getting in my seat, turning my music on, and sitting for about 5 minutes, I realize Vincent still has not come out.
I walk into the house to see if he needs help with his shoes, and he is no where to be found.
I call him. No answer. I yell for him. No answer. I SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. Still nothing. Now I'm pissed. We are running late, this is ALL for HIS class, and he is going to try to play hide-and-seek right now? So like all wonderful mothers do, I scream, "IF YOU DO NOT ANSWER ME RIGHT NOW I AM GOING TO FIND YOU AND BEAT YOUR ASS!" Still. No. Answer.
Now I'm worried. Because if he was in the house, he would have heard me. And if he would have heard me, he would have been running to me as fast as his little feet could carry him.
I run back outside to see if he ran around the house, and there, sitting in his seat buckled up and ready to go, is Vincent. Somehow in the commotion of getting the girls in the car I didn't notice him slip into the car. I crack up laughing and tell Vincent how I was freaking out in the house because I thought he was hiding from me. He says, "Well, I wasn't hiding mom, I was just in the car. So I guess you don't have to beat my ass." 😂
So, anyways, now that you know what a deranged psycho I am, let me tell you what I'm grateful for today! 😂
Honestly, today was an amazing day. It's truly incredible what a difference changing your perspective on simple day to day life can make on how you feel about your life as a whole. As I went through my day, I took special care to mentally note the things that happened that gave me great joy, and although it is hard to narrow it down, here are the 3 things that I am so thankful for today.
1. United Airline Memes
Like, I'm sorry, but those things are fucking hilarious. I sat there for about 10 minutes in my kitchen while my kids had a frozen yogurt tube outside and I skimmed through dozens of absolutely comical and brilliant memes. I haven't laughed so hard in a LONG TIME!
2. Having Coffee with A Friend
Like this even requires an explanation. There is always a handful of people you meet at each duty station that you KNOW you are going to be life long friends with, and this girl is definitely one of them. It's amazing having our kids just play and get along while her and I have a cup of coffee and just chat about life.
3. Mila's Smile.
Without fail, no matter what kind of mood I'm in, this girl always has a way of putting a smile on my face. Lily and Vincent spent most of the night bickering, but no matter what is going on, I can always count on Mila to have a smile for me.
Overall, I am really excited and encouraged in the changes that I feel after just one day of trying to find the silver lining to everything. I feel so much more positive, happy, and I am excited to see that rub off on my kids too who have spent a great deal of the last few months tuning into my negativity and self-doubt. Tonight when they went to bed, they both said they were grateful for cuddles with their mom, and for getting to play with their friends.
I really feel like this is the first day to a very beautiful change within our family.
I really feel like this is the first day to a very beautiful change within our family.